People who say they sleep like a baby usually don't have one. ~Leo J. Burke
I will be the first to admit I am not ready to have a baby. I am too selfish and needy when it comes to my sleep. I slept in this morning until close to noon. Apparently this happens NEVER AGAIN when you have a little one. With kids it is usually "Sun is up- get up!"
Being the irresponsible puppy parent that I am, I just lift up the covers and say "Go night-night" if my puppies wake up and get restless. I am very aware this tactic is not acceptable with a child. You have to be immediately attentive to your baby. I salute the Energizer-bunny-moms I know! I have so far to come...Is this natural second wind something that just happens when you become a mother?
Lust for a Bust
I am at a crossroads. I thought I had finally come to terms with the fact that I am flatter-than-flat-chested. "I have the ballerina body," has always been my justification to myself. Well, I have not been a ballerina in years- so I say: to hell with the "ballerina body!" I am now a 21 year old woman striving to be a 21 woman! I am so over the boyish figure. Is it time for a boob job?
It has really been on my mind lately. I am not sure my husband is super keen on the idea- but I am pretty sure he would be fanatical about the results (men are men after all)! How can he enthusiastically observe these women on TV with their perfect busts and then try to talk me down on the subject? Kind of hypocritical… Not even that I am jealous or that I feel like I need to live up to these women- but you can not appreciate something on them and try to downplay my desire for a similar appearance.
My mother and # 1 fan, wishes I did not feel the need or have the desire for a more bountiful bust. But mommy dearest is also sporting some natural DD’s- so I am thinking her opinion on the matter is pretty much void! However, I continue to discuss the topic with her and when prompted to explain to me what I could physically do to make my self look more my age- she begins to recognize my stance.
I just need to get to a point where I am positive that I am doing this for the right reasons. I want to know it is the right decision for ME- not because I think it will make me more popular or because I want to be the sexiest shopper in the frozen foods aisle at Kroger-! Am I really this shallow to think that bigger boobs will make me happy? I do not want to be another superficial statistic. It seems all about appearance though- it is obviously highly regarding vanity, but can it go deeper than that? Can it be about gaining some revere for one’s self?
It has really been on my mind lately. I am not sure my husband is super keen on the idea- but I am pretty sure he would be fanatical about the results (men are men after all)! How can he enthusiastically observe these women on TV with their perfect busts and then try to talk me down on the subject? Kind of hypocritical… Not even that I am jealous or that I feel like I need to live up to these women- but you can not appreciate something on them and try to downplay my desire for a similar appearance.
My mother and # 1 fan, wishes I did not feel the need or have the desire for a more bountiful bust. But mommy dearest is also sporting some natural DD’s- so I am thinking her opinion on the matter is pretty much void! However, I continue to discuss the topic with her and when prompted to explain to me what I could physically do to make my self look more my age- she begins to recognize my stance.
I just need to get to a point where I am positive that I am doing this for the right reasons. I want to know it is the right decision for ME- not because I think it will make me more popular or because I want to be the sexiest shopper in the frozen foods aisle at Kroger-! Am I really this shallow to think that bigger boobs will make me happy? I do not want to be another superficial statistic. It seems all about appearance though- it is obviously highly regarding vanity, but can it go deeper than that? Can it be about gaining some revere for one’s self?
"They tell me I am skinny, as if that is supposed to make me happy"
"I don't see myself as beautiful, because I can see a lot of flaws. People have really odd opinions. They tell me I'm skinny, as if that's supposed to make me happy." -- Angelina Jolie
Society as a whole really promotes skewed views on body image. Why is "skinny" so in? I have probably spent too much time pondering this, yet am still at a loss. I personally do not find that being skinny has enhanced my life in anyway. Yet, people tend to gawk over the trait. It honestly makes me rather uncomfortable when people somehow think they are complementing, my small figure- like it is a valuable prize that I should hold near and dear to my heart. Don't get me wrong, every girl loves and welcomes a compliment. But, when a woman I do not even know says, in a slight tone of disghust "Oh My God, she is so skinny. Look at her!" Hello People? That is not a compliment! ...
Please do not point out my daily struggle. I look twelve! Take your womanly figure and go happily about your day! I have always struggled with not being able to gain weight. Yes, I realize this might sound like a minimal or ideal problem, especially if your personal struggle is trying to lose unwanted weight, but we all have our own private struggles. This just happens to be mine. I would never think of saying to anyone, "My God those spider veins on your legs are quite a nice shade of blue!" I guess I feel like people have total lack of respect or disregard if your personal issue or daily struggle is not the NORM because you might be trying to rid what others strive for? I do not want to look sickly, why would anyone WANT that?! I do not think that malnutrition is stylish.
No, I have never had an eating disorder- because that goes against my total goal: looking healthy. I try to appreciate my body- because really, it is what I have to work with- but the whole "skinny" thing is not something I am impressed with. Why is our culture so overcome by it?
Okay- this "skinny" chica is done ranting… I think I will go eat something now
Society as a whole really promotes skewed views on body image. Why is "skinny" so in? I have probably spent too much time pondering this, yet am still at a loss. I personally do not find that being skinny has enhanced my life in anyway. Yet, people tend to gawk over the trait. It honestly makes me rather uncomfortable when people somehow think they are complementing, my small figure- like it is a valuable prize that I should hold near and dear to my heart. Don't get me wrong, every girl loves and welcomes a compliment. But, when a woman I do not even know says, in a slight tone of disghust "Oh My God, she is so skinny. Look at her!" Hello People? That is not a compliment! ...
Please do not point out my daily struggle. I look twelve! Take your womanly figure and go happily about your day! I have always struggled with not being able to gain weight. Yes, I realize this might sound like a minimal or ideal problem, especially if your personal struggle is trying to lose unwanted weight, but we all have our own private struggles. This just happens to be mine. I would never think of saying to anyone, "My God those spider veins on your legs are quite a nice shade of blue!" I guess I feel like people have total lack of respect or disregard if your personal issue or daily struggle is not the NORM because you might be trying to rid what others strive for? I do not want to look sickly, why would anyone WANT that?! I do not think that malnutrition is stylish.
No, I have never had an eating disorder- because that goes against my total goal: looking healthy. I try to appreciate my body- because really, it is what I have to work with- but the whole "skinny" thing is not something I am impressed with. Why is our culture so overcome by it?
Okay- this "skinny" chica is done ranting… I think I will go eat something now
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