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I am at a crossroads. I thought I had finally come to terms with the fact that I am flatter-than-flat-chested. "I have the ballerina body," has always been my justification to myself. Well, I have not been a ballerina in years- so I say: to hell with the "ballerina body!" I am now a 21 year old woman striving to be a 21 woman! I am so over the boyish figure. Is it time for a boob job?
It has really been on my mind lately. I am not sure my husband is super keen on the idea- but I am pretty sure he would be fanatical about the results (men are men after all)! How can he enthusiastically observe these women on TV with their perfect busts and then try to talk me down on the subject? Kind of hypocritical… Not even that I am jealous or that I feel like I need to live up to these women- but you can not appreciate something on them and try to downplay my desire for a similar appearance.
My mother and # 1 fan, wishes I did not feel the need or have the desire for a more bountiful bust. But mommy dearest is also sporting some natural DD’s- so I am thinking her opinion on the matter is pretty much void! However, I continue to discuss the topic with her and when prompted to explain to me what I could physically do to make my self look more my age- she begins to recognize my stance.
I just need to get to a point where I am positive that I am doing this for the right reasons. I want to know it is the right decision for ME- not because I think it will make me more popular or because I want to be the sexiest shopper in the frozen foods aisle at Kroger-! Am I really this shallow to think that bigger boobs will make me happy? I do not want to be another superficial statistic. It seems all about appearance though- it is obviously highly regarding vanity, but can it go deeper than that? Can it be about gaining some revere for one’s self?